Me

In truth, I've been running from myself

Afraid to see myself in the mirror

To see myself as I truly am

I thought I knew myself

I thought I knew what was mine

What was inside of me

But then you came

And I was ready to give it all away

Without even knowing what "it" was

I was trying to protect my heart

Without understanding it

I came to realize I wanted none of myself anymore

I wanted the whole of you

I wanted to be with you

Because being with myself was meaningless

I didn't even know this girl

Like I thought I knew her

I didn't know why I needed to keep my heart

I didn't know what good it was to me

What did I need it for anyway?

It turns out you can only run from yourself for so long

Before you run into yourself

Before I have to face me

In the dawn of a new day

In the arms of someone not me

Stripped of my acts

Raw to the touch

Vulnerable, weak, unable to hide

Alone with myself and you

I thought all I had to do to know me

Was to know what was not me

So I wasn't this

And I wasn't that

But all my subtracting

Made no difference

In the end, my total was the sum of me

The additions- the More

But how much more?

How much more do I have left to find

If I know some of me

But not all of me

How do I become whole?

This is the beauty--

When I find you, I find me

When I listen to you

You tell me who I am

You let me face myself

Because you know who I will be

You see my potential

In your infinite love

You make yourself the bridge

Between who I am and who I could be

In the meantime

You promise me

That I will get there

Even though I will make mistakes

I will learn

Because you are Life

And when I drink deep of you

I experience

I breathe

I see

I hear

I know

I understand

When I am with you, I am with me

And maybe, just maybe

That is the safest place to be.